Waiting and Wasting

Why does it seem that we spend so much of our life waiting?  Waiting for a phone call, waiting for the bank to open, waiting for so-and-so to let you know what's going on with them so that you can make your own plans accordingly.  These inconveniences are a part of life that as we grow a little older and a little more patient (perhaps), we become accustomed to and the mild irritation that accompanies them.

What about the other type of waiting, though? The not so easy waits. The waiting for an answer to a prayer, the waiting for a plan that you've poured all your energy into to fall into place, the waiting for the one thing you want more than anything, but you have no control over whether it happens for you or not.  It's this type of waiting that feels more like wasting than anything - wasting away time and energy that can be better put somewhere else. It makes you feel like you're wasting away a little inside, too. The longer you wait, the longer you wonder if you still want what you're waiting for and what your reasons were for wanting it in the first place. 

And don't get me started on those who wait for you while you wait.  Being so absorbed and distracted by the emotional roller coaster that is the "waiting game" and having those who count on you the most waiting for you, all of you, not just the shell of what you were before you started waiting in the first place.  It's a cycle that offers no winners along the way, no consolation prizes for "Most Patient" or "Best Long Sufferer." Of course, in the end, if you wait long enough, the prize is getting what you waited for.  When the goal has been attained, however,  more than just a tapped out foot and furrowed brow are the prices paid.

So, having had all these deep thoughts on the subject of waiting, I've come to realize that I have to relinquish some control and stop the waste.  Worrying about when our house back east sells, about when we will buy a house here, about if/when we'll ever have another baby, about when a time comes that we're not so far away from all our family, all of it is a waste. I won't give it another ounce of my energy or another moment of my time, considering that

"Life Is What Happens While You’re Waiting for the Grand Moments That Never Come."

Love and hugs to all...until we see each other again. 

Aub